My Guiding Light

MY GUIDING LIGHT

Written by me on 12/29/08

(C, v1, C, v2, C, v3, C, v4, 2nd part of C, ...tag...)

Chorus
You listen to every word I say
Even if it's not Your way.
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Guiding me though life's first cry
Loving us, making Your Son die.

V1
Reaching out to Your glory
and filling up my story.
Pushing through the loneliness.
Thank You Lord, You are generous.

v2
Change me Lord I pray
I need Your help today.
Change my thoughts to Your way
You give me all you got (cus)

v3
Lead the broken heart
Help no relationship fall apart
Give us Your guiding light
no matter the height

v4
With every mountain comes a valley
life can't be just happy.
Father, give me a struggle
something seeming much to handle

Tag
Give me pain (Lord)
and leave a stain
Help me through the falling rain.
Give me the needs to see You...

Enough

Feeling worth while? Women have this thing in their heart that I would like to call a measuring tool. In their minds they continue to wonder if they are enough. Am I loving enough? Am I enough? Do I give enough? Can I offer enough? Is this enough to make me worth while? For some reason women feel the need to gain their understanding of their worth. Sometimes they use worldly things to receive their answer. Unfortunately this usually results to problems. The result is making the woman feel like a failure. Then they find themselves asking the question again, "am I enough?"
The reply, "of coarse not. I failed. I'm worth nothing."
Luckily, there's a way for women to understand what they are worth. They can spend hours in the Scriptures, years studying with others, only to find the conclusion. Which seems wonderful right? Wrong. The conclusion is heaven. Only then will Christian women see and understand true worth. That does sound wonderful but what's the "problem?" Nothing....really. Except the fact that we have this thing called sinful nature. It likes to get in the way of our everlasting sinless hearts. We wake up to finding ourselves on Earth. Hearing those voices in our minds, questioning are worth. It's not until we come to the realization that it will be "like this" until we spend eternity with God. We must understand that He is enough. In fact, more than enough. Not only did He save one person, but He saved all of us. His unfailing love is more than enough for you or for me. Now that is what puts me back to reality. It takes me back to the right perspective. I'm worth while because God says I am. He shows it to me by giving me Jesus.

Broken

God has definitely taught me something this past week. Actually, it's been a year in the making. Well, at least a year. He has led me to learn how to become weak to let Him make me strong. I've been trying to do things my own way, and He continued to knock on my door. He wanted me to let go of my worries, stresses, and confusion on my life decisions. I'm not saying that my life makes total sense now, haha. I would lie if I said that. I'm still figuring out what I'll be doing come January 2009. But I know it's not me that will decide.
Which leads me to another thing God has taught me. Prayer.....I've always heard people say "prayer life" and had an idea what that meant. Never have I been on my knees so much night after night pleading to God of my frustrations and "what now?" pleas. I've really learned to rely on Him and know He has the best plan for me. I thought I knew everything. I thought I could give myself a timeline. If only I could have taken a step back and allowed myself to serve others, glorify Him, and focus on eternity matters. I plan on never letting another day go by without refocusing my purpose for being where I am. I'm right here right now for a reason. No matter where I am at, I will keep my focus on Him.

This is a song I wrote regaurding my latest pleas to God about my job situation.
So far I've given it the name Broken, and I also plan on adding more to it.

Order (so far): PC, C, V1, PC, V2, PC, C


[PC]
Letting go of the passion
saying no to the decision
(is) the hardest thing to bear.
I dont think they really care.

[C]
How my heart is broken
of the things I've spoken
Next chapter of life
unsure what's open.

[V1]
The noise surrounds me
I do not grieve.
What does this mean?
Who do I ought to be?

[V2]
Nothing holding me back now
Drying tears that fell down
Looking for guidance
with God alone I find romance.
His love makes me want to dance.

Love Everlasting

Ever watched the wonderful mysteries of those "happily ever after" Disney classics? Back when you were a little princess, all you could think about was that handsome prince. While you got older you continue to look at those classic videos and watch that perfect, beautiful girl get the one and only special prince. Then you wake up from your dream and notice you're in your own bedroom with pajamas you wear around the house and hair that could use a shower. Not to mention those wonderful bags under your eyes. Obviously it shows you don't sleep well at night. You roll over and get into a sitting position. You wonder what that dream was about and how untrue it is. In real life those kinds of things never happen! Someday you do plan on rolling over to a prince beside you, but his name will certainly not be prince. His hair isn't always perfect. His voice won't always be soothing. Someday it will be all you can do to get your prince to look you in the eye. He will not always have those perfect words to say at the right moments. Instead of that perfect prince hair, he will be growing facial hair. His tone of voice will rise due to selfishness. It will take time to get his eyes away from the television screen, or worse yet, another girl. He will never find the right words to say. He will disappoint you.When we face reality it's all we can do not to hide. We spend our time dreaming up these crazy fantasies. Why shouldn't we? Growing up with one after the other doesn't teach us much, except the fact that every girl has a guy, THE guy. Guys think they are like Adam, someday they will wake up and look and there will stand their "Eve." In yet they allow their eyes to wonder into other directions until and usually after they find their girl. While guys are checking out the different Eve subs, the girls out there are looking for Prince Charming. Wishing guys would stop treating them like meat, and love them for who they are inside. What if you do find a guy that takes you for who you are? He does have nice hair. His voice makes your heart leap. He does look you straight in the eye. He listens to you and backs you up. He believes in you and supports you. His words make you comfortable. Whatever comes out of his mouth is positive. He looks forward to hearing your voice in return. He cares for you deeply and it shows. This guy truly loves you! Don't let him leave your life. This guy isn't perfect. He isn't Jesus. God will direct your life. He's the creator. He isn't at the top of the list. He is the list. Let God write your romantic reality. If you don't let him, trust me, it will only be fantasy for a short time. Reality will hit and things will fall. Let God lead you. He wants you to let Him. He is just waiting on you. Let God write your reality, otherwise you won't find Prince Charming but a "wicked stepsister" instead.